Song that I first heard from Magne.

Lil' Rob- Summer Nights

Summer days just sitting around but when the sun goes down Ill be ready to party
(Par-ty)
Aint nothing like them summer nights
Keep the top on drop while the girls looking hot, hit the volo and we just dont stop
Party until the morning light
(Par-ty)
Aint nothing like them summer nights

9.30 this morning, its Jini's time to get inside the airport.. whew! It should be a big thingy-- this day that she's going away.. But it isn't right now. Maybe because I know and we already said to each other that it's time for us to move forward, leave our past behind and just think about the future. I think it's time to think about ourselves. I know we're selfish but I think we'd given enough for right now. We'll surely miss her..I know that there'll surely be a lot of heavy, melancholic and lonelesome times but we're strong so.. yeah! lol. Have a safe and exciting trip ella! =]

Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head and remind yourself of who you are. And where you wanna be. And sometimes you have to venture outside your world in order to find yourself.

All That I've Got"

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

yeah, I'm happy right now.. big part of it.. because I saw Jose smiling.. =] Just like the old days?? errrm, I don't know. lol. Just a happy floating feeling.. Maybe it's the reward of the pissed-me-off afternoon I had with my brother. Yeah, optimism's coming back. I miss my friends in Baguio! I wanna go home! Well, not like the other day that I've decided to try satying here because I spent the day with Joy and PM.. Hmm.. very confusing yet challenging.

Waha!!

I love my new banner. I made it. Though the lavender isn't really my shot. I can't help it.

I want to see and have pictures with cherry blossom trees! Japan!! When can I visit you!

Sad..

I dreamt that I was with Jini a while ago. It was supposed to be a happy dream or a happy feeling but then it wasn't. Sad..

First I remember seeing Jini wearing a red blouse and a headband which the color seemed to be black and white. It was like a dismissal after a class.. but I think the time was about nine pm. Students or I say people were all over the place..I wasn't able to catch up to Jini and suddenly I was with Joh [a friend who's become a not that close friend because of some not-liking]. Yeah, we had bondings before. I messaged Jini twice. Looking for her.. Jo was frustrated telling me that Jini should be with us because she'll be leaving soon. Joh was wearing a white blouse that night. All of a sudden she's gone and I was still looking for Jini and then saw her. She's already wearing a different blouse or whatsoever. We walked.. going somewhere like having dinner.. I was feeling kinda hungry that time. We were walking [the location was like at the bridge of Teachers Camp going to Chill Out]. There was a part in my dream that she was wanting to held my hand- well, just for girly holding hands which we normally do. But as I held her right hand I felt something dropped at my hand. I felt that those were drops of tears that came from her eyes. I knew they were tears. I never saw but I felt her crying that night [while we were walking]. I remembered asking her. [bakit ka umiiyak? with a smile.. it was dark and I don't want to cry also]. And  then we were in a video shop.. [that looks like a shop selling pirated dvds] I remembered her telling me "Uy Kopi Roti!" then she was reading the details of the dvd case. There was a part also that I asked her why she's busy.. and then she answered like "Bf ko kasi eh, si Neris [?! I think]. I answered her " Ay Neris naman pala ang pangalan, nakakalimutan ko kasi, lol."

*some plus in my dream

-I was wearing a small red jacket

-I have with me the keys that we're using here in Singapore [It was supposed to be the key that I'll be using that night when I get home].

-Keys were in my red jacket's left pocket.

What's the meaning of this dream??

I miss Jini so so much... =/

huhu

What do you really want to do K??  Work already? Go home andcome back? Extend your vacation?

Make up your mind Kat.. You can't tell what you'll be missing. You don't know what you're missing..

"What have you lost that you wish you still had?

My bangles-- I used to be the only one who had that kind in Baguio. The night when it was lost was also so memorable. So sad that the lost teamed up with the total happiness the night has given. =/

Anticipated for the time change to eleven o'clock. extended til twelve thirty though. starving. still waited.

Jini's back. we eat plenty of green leaves [dahon ng sayote including the stem. opcors!] took shower. went to the office with my bro and papa. printed our tickets for next week's flight. asked for allowance. forgot to bring tita's ATM card. we went back home. took the grade of Jini at school and ran stuff for Jini's TOF. walked much. exhausted yet overjoyed. I'm with Jini again. Happy.

Food. hungering. we eat at chowking as planned. Sweet and sour pork plus tofu plus nai tsa and black gulaman. Burp!

Texted Jayson. Got home. Went back to SM then discovered the creepy thing. Strolled. peeped Jayj. He was wearing a blue long sleeves.

Waited for Jayson and Inin with a plan of spoofing. Laughing trip. Bogs being weird and companionable. 

Went inside the grocery. Lost bullet. =/ Gone. scared. pissed. emptied.

Magne called my name. Asked somethings bout the party. Wafu as usual. busy. worried. still searching for the lost bullet.

frustrated.

Magne's girlfriend suddenly looked familiar. okay. Jayj's girfriend. ouch.

In the house of Inin's dad [location to Inin's extended graduation party]. Met and played with Vera. Three year-old girl. The sweetest girl who unanticaptedly slapped me. lol.
she's very pretty and addicted to salt. lol.

Sean, Rap, Ferds, an instructor, Magne and co., Tin. Enjoy.

My sister called-- Jini cried?! Awww.. Really sad.. =/

sat at the veranda. Eat some food that tasted like Tinola but said to be Pinapaitan. hmmm. Thanks Noy and Jayson.

Gin Blue. played, laughed at the same time checking my pinkies.

concerned to PercS!!Awww.. =(

Bye bye to some. Hello to the sleepyheads. Sean [with marks on his face], Hecky, Tin, sister of Magne, the younger brother of Magne [geo I think], Jini and Jayson. Whew!

Inin and I. Wehe! survived the world of drunkness. apir! haha!

Got home five thirty in the morning. Waha! Thanks Noy!! =]

I'm gonna miss you all. Awwwww..

plus in the attendance: Paul [Pulo], Romar and Abby the girlfriend, Milko, Dogz daw and Autoload the girlfriend..... many more.

Jini and I were out early in the morning. Early as 9:30. lol. I was so excited and happy to talk and be with her again. It's been like 3 weeks? Miss each other's company. Actually, two hours wasn't enough but we managed our time talking and not being attentive while waiting for her birth certificate, talking while eating nuggets and rice. That's my second time eating breakfast yesterday. We're rich. yeah. we enjoyed it.lol. we saw our crush- Mcfloat. Waha! A strange and lucky day! =]

Opcors!! lol

congratulations to my friendly- friends who will be graduating tomorrow- Mikey and Inin! To Payong and Burn also this coming April. Congrats guys!
I'm gonna miss you all!

Whew!

Just the thought of being scolded by my parents.. Beer and gin doesn't taste good at all. lol.

Sorry to Earth. I didn't cooperate. =/

Excited and blank for the coming week.